Well, Ive finally decided to jot down my thoughts....I'm gonna start today!!!



I'm feeling OK today had pasta for my breakfast lol...."yeah I know I'm strange". I'm not feeling well ok really no real thoughts just typing....I'm sure that will change.



I'm still very upset and angry my therapy is ending in a few months, as well as scared. But I have to face reality. Its going to end and I cant stop it. I just wish I never felt so down



I'm going to the Dentist in an hour, that's going to be fun. Katie got extremely drunk last night, I'm a bit gutted I never went to this party of Annette's but oh well cant change the past now can I.



I may be buying a web cam to speak to my buddy Jeep he is a great guy.

I'm a bit lost at the minute, but I'm strong enough to get through the next few months and face my fears..I know I can.



Well so far so good I feel better..



Dream:



I had a weird one last night. I was driving through, I presume lichfield with some friends, and all of a sudden the car caught on fire. The fire started under the dash board, but spread fast to the passenger seat. I broke quickly and some lady was on her doorstep, I asked her for some water quickly she responded quickly. I started throwing water over the flames. i told the passengers to get out of the car but they were being slow about it taking their time.

I continued to throw water over the flames, conscious that the car was going to blow up.
I thought I was winning and was going to beat the flames..So I started the Engine but it wouldn't start. I then continued to thrown water on the flames and I got the flames to a minimum, but I could not contain them completely, that's when I ran away with the passengers and we waited for it to explode.

It exploded and I was frightened that some parts would hit me and a pole missed me by inches.

I then phoned 999 and asked them for the fire Services but after I explained what had happened they said don't worry about it, just get yourself home.

I couldn't get myself home. I was miles away. We thought about getting a taxi..





Also another one. I'm in the TV show Dexter, you know the "serial killer" show. I know that's freaky, and a guy gets killed, and we bury him, but the cops are onto us, And they find the body but they have no proof it is us.

But we go to court and plead not guilty. My friend is found not guilty and then Dexter aka me starts a bit of a scene saying well if he is not guilty, none of us are, and I stand up and start saying "am I guilty", I need to know straight away. I head for the entrance and see security coming after me. But the judge says I'm not guilty also.

I felt Like a sense of relief that we never get caught and possibly go to jail. I was in a caravan after that. A bit weird huh?





Well there you go I'm completely crazy, I'm gonna post my dream on a forum and see if anyone can decipher it.